Hi Ojams,
I quit 3 weeks ago today, and while it hasn't been easy, I figure the worst thing I ever did was have that first one. And I've committed to myself I wont have that first one, ever again. I think of everything that would be different if I hadn't, and so I have in my mind that I get to start again, and I won't smoke the first one.
I have also really focused on not letting this beat me. I was brainwashed that smoking is pleasurable, conditioned that it calms me, gives me a break from everything or rewards me, but that's all bull-pucky. Smoking is dirty, nasty, smelly and socially frowned upon, and I know it.
I also try to imagine the craving for a smoke like it's a nasty bug or creature living deep in my tissue (killing me) and each time i have a craving that bug/creature is shouting out to me "feed me", "sustain me", "help me" and by not smoking I'm actually starving and killing the craving, and eventually it will die.
I know this all sounds crazy, but tearing apart my car/house/purse for a lighter, standing in the snow/wind/rain or missing a family moment to smoke is actually even crazier, so I'm living with my crazy self, and also taking refuge by sleeping.
Whatever it takes, and there are people here for you. You took the first step, now swing that other foot forward and take another!! You can do this!