Hi!!
My name is Stephanie and i'm new on this site. I've quit smoking 4 weeks and 2 days ago. Some days are really good...other aren't that good. I tried to quit smoking a few times. The longest that i was able to stop was for 10 months (that was 2 years ago.) This time i triying cold turkey and by reading lots of book on quitting smoking. Alen Carr's book help me the most. He says in his book that he used to smoke 5 packs a day for 35 years. So i'm telling myself: if he can do it, so can i. However, sometimes i feel like i have and angel and a devil in my head. The angle tries to keep me smoke free and the devil makes me miss it so much (ha! ha!) Some days, i remember all the reasons why i stoped smoking. Other days, i can't remember one. There was a certain period that was hard for me today. My boyfriend and i had are first fire (in our fireplace outside) of the summer. It was sooo hard for me to enjoy it without a cigarette. That used to be one of my favorite spots to smoke...right next to a cracling fire. I was so pissed at myself at that moment. Instead of enjoying the moment with my boyfriend and being proud of myself for taking control of my life...i could'nt stop repeating in my head: I WOULD SO SMOKE A CIGARETTE RIGHT NOW!!!!. Anyways, i'm taking one day at a time. I'm not one of those person that can say not one more puff...it scares me to much and i don't want to put that pressior on myself. Instead, i end everyday by congradulating myself for being smoke free and facing tomorrow with a positive attitude.
Wow...it felt real good writing all this. I hope this site will help me stay smoke free.
Thanks everybody.
