You said:
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I'm getting ready for bed and I had to get rid of the cigs. i didn't want to have to wake up tommorrow and smoke. I don't have a plan of any sort. I don't have coping techniques. I don't have nrt. I don't even have strong enthusiasm. I'm just plain tired.
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Why are you tired? Tired of what? Smoking, living with being a smoker, planning your life around smoking, all of the above?
You really need to try to plan this out. We can and will help you as much as we can, but unfortunately we can't reach thru the Internet to slap you on the hand if you reach for a smoke, or try to purchase some, or light one up.
The "nicodemon" as he is fondly called around here is realizing you are pretty damn serious about quitting, and is trying to mess with your head - especially when you said:
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but the more I was planning to quit, the more I held on to my "precious" cigs.
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He is afraid you will quit for real. Make it real. Realize WHY you are tired, WHY you are thinking of quitting right now. You may think you DON'T want to quit because of the symptoms you are having, but in fact, the first step to quitting is THINKING about it.
Use the tools here, set a date, (if you want today, all the better!) and use this group for support.
YOU CAN DO THIS.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/19/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 28
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 427
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $189
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 13 [B]Mins:[/B] 40 [B]Seconds:[/B] 46