I am back,and having a hard time again today.
Sometimes I wonder if we set ourselves up for failure,Quiting at this time in our lives.
We moved from Florida back to Ohio(where we are both from)And have been caring for my husbands parents with alzheimers and dementia for the past 7 years. It has been a stressful job,but they did not have anyone else to look after them.
and I respect my husband for wanting to care for them and keep them at home.
They have required 24 hour care for the past 6 years,in which we have provided everyday M-F,and have a care service watch them nights and weekends.
On June 15th this year his father passed away.
His quality of life at the end was sad,as he had severe dementia,
But the main cause of his death was his COPD. He was a heavy smoker most of his life,and his lungs worked his heart too hard.
His Mother is in the very advanced stages of alzhiemers,and to our knowledge does not know he has passed,which is a blessing for her,She adored him. She has been bedridden since Dec 27th,Does not recognize any family, and is only able to eat baby food.
Sometimes I feel we are setting ourselves up for failure because
We have so little to do during the days now. and it leaves so much time to think about smoking. I do so much better when I am busy.
We plan to move back down south after his mother passes.
Sometimes I think it would be better to try then,when we will have more going on in our lives.
But I get mad at myself for having those thoughts of failing because I quit at the wrong time.
Plus I need to think about my husband.
He has been so strong and supportive during this period.
I would hate for him to go through the end his life like his father did,struggling for air from smoking.
He has smoked a lot longer than I, And hate to say it,but was probably more ready to quit than me. I need to stay strong for him also.
But I still ask myself, Did I quit at the wrong time in my life?
Kerin
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 210
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $37
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 59 [B]Seconds:[/B] 42
