Hi Red! Thank you! I hope your doing well!
Hi Davit,
I think I attribute my success to... I was going to say hope but there was a time I didn't have it. I don't really know what changed it except time. And it took a long time. There were days when I was motivated and times when I was completely hopeless. But more and more I thought if all is going to end "bad" anyway, I'll try every approach I can and test myself... I guess. I agree with your revised quote; I don't want anyone to think they always have to do it even I mean esp when there's fear around but I think the realization that I still am capable even if the fear is around is pretty much what gives me the willpower these days, personally. I'm finally starting to get the "I'm stronger than I think I am" quote. Well, I use this only for things I need to get done, like the dentist, etc. but no, I won't force myself to watch a scary movie or touch a spider or things like that. Or even going to the dentist... I told myself I can always leave. (Another thing I'm learning: setting boundaries)
Other than that, I'd like to think I've let go. It's still hard, but I've learned to close my eyes and feel the breeze when my support person drives, literally. Things like that. And I owe so much to my support person, my sister, my cats, past therapists, people who we're kind when I'd share my situation, people like you guys who were courageous to share your stories and make me feel so not alone, and other activities like art, music, gardening, exercising. People who told me they like my art helped me gain some confidence too. I just had to tell myself to have patience and tomorrow is another day and that things are always changing even me.
Maybe I got off topic, I hope that's what you meant haha
