Hi, here to update again.
I hope all is well.
I found a new therapist and I actually go to her office to visit her. For my past therapist, she used to visit me at my home, but now I'm not afraid to leave my home for my appointments. My support person still takes me though.
I went to the DMV and finally changed my name back on my driver's license. That day was the best day of my life. I waited 4 years to do it. I was crying of joy as I walked out of the building. I will never forget that day. And then from that day, I've asked my support person to take me to the empty parking lot and we go almost every day to drive. At first it was 1 step forward, 2 steps back, but right now I'm able to keep driving for 20 minutes. The progress is very very very slow still, and honestly, I still can't imagine myself actually driving on a real street, but hey, there were many things I didn't believe I could do back then, that I can do now, so I can't wait to surprise myself.
I also started a meditation class. A class! This is such a great year for me. There's only 2 or 3 other people in there but I found out they're all in there for anxiety. It's the first time I've physically met a "stranger" with anxiety and I felt like I'm not alone.
Oh yes and I did try the freeway ride a few times this year. It's only one or two exists still but I did it and will do it again.
I've been contemplating about SSRIs again, to help me more and also my Dr. & therapists suggest it. Leaning towards it, but haven't decided.
Anyways, that's about it.
I hope everyone is doing well.