Hello Everyone, I am so happy I have not had a full-blown attack for over a month, so grateful and thankful for that.
I just do not understand why the other "things" are not going away too? Like right now I am very shaky and nervous, left arm pain, mild heart palps, breathing shallow etc........Are these mini-panic's"? Gosh I hope not! I was so hoping when the full-blowns went away the anxiety, health fears and depression would ease too, that is not happening yet, and through they are not as bad and brutal as the attacks they are still very bad and hindering my life, especially about leaving the house {agorophobia}
I do the breathing and I am still taking the klonopin {through I hate running too the pill bottle to calm down!} My thoughts of heart attacks and health problems are still running rampant! Did anyone else ever experience this? Its like, I will give an example, I had five ugly growths on my face, one big four medium size, and the big one went away but the four others remain and will not go away! Does that make sense? Like the panics left, WHY not the worry, fear, health anxiety and sadness, and the bodily symptoms remain, I guess I mean, like that movie "IS this as good as it gets"? I hope not, I guess I have to work harder and try not too worry so much about the bodily symptoms and future, I mean sickness and death are inevitable and you cannot control or stop it, I have too accept that! I just want to enjoy the moment, I have let go of the past, but not the future, if you know what I mean. I pray everynight for calmness peace and faith, that is my goal, to live and try to enjoy life not just endure or exist. I want that more than anything else, for my family.
