Thank you all for you're replies. I still am hanging on to you're words Sunny that this is common after months and months of panic attacks and my body just needs to heal. I have spoke to the Doctor about this Ashley and he really had no answers, I think sometimes he thinks "middle-aged perimenopause" that probably has something to do with it, starting the change of lie I am sure does not help this disorder but I do not want hormones since I read all the risks, no hot flashes yet, still to come!
I get very very bad broken up sleep that I am sure contributes to the symptoms, it takes me a long time to fall asleep and then my husband wakes me {not on purpose I just hear him} at 5:00 am sometimes I dont fall asleep till after 4:00 so thats only an hour sleep, then my son gets up at 6:30 am, also I go to the bathroom a lot and the dogs bark and wake me, I sleep too much during the day I know, but for two reasons, I dont sleep well at all at night and sometimes sleeping during the day when I am all alone makes the day go quicker, I figure if I am sleeping I am not worrying or panicking, and I know that is NOT good and trying to change it, and depression I know the number one symptom is fatigue and exhaustion, I guess I am depressed because of what this has done to my life, being house-bound and all, I am so hoping and praying patience and time and acceptance will cure this, and CBT, which IS helping Sunny, at least I know and understand things a bit better.
Thanks for saying 50 is NOT old Ashley, that was comforting, I just have to get it out of mind that it is and all the good times are past, I dont want to have the mindset of "I am so old and unhealthy" to change that to "I have a lot of living to do" I know positive self-talk is important, maybe I am trying to "rush" things because of my husband's upcoming two surgeries and thinking "I must be better to take care of him!" you cannot rush this I know but I am so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired I just want to feel better NOW, after almost a year of this you can probably see why. More time I guess I need and more positivity, I do know I want to get better and live again, this I know and my goal!