Thank you Tiana, that's very encouraging! I'm often told I'm naive and that I should play my cards closer to my chest. Yet, that seems contrary to working towards peace within and for others.
My mom had a really tough time letting people help her or hiring people to do things. As a result, she isolated herself and suffered. It made me realize something. Something I told her and I hope it helped her - There's a reason there's more than one person on this planet - so we can help each other. I hope that helps someone else.
Davit - good questions. I have memory problems and I forget things that are important to her. I got off the medications in hopes that would help my memory as I read that can be a problem with some SSRI's.
I was also raised with sarcasm as a form of communciation. Now, my sweetie can deal as good as she gets, but I try to be more sincere and stay away from sarcasm.
Something else that bothers her is that we don't go out much to just visit with friends or whatever. We used to do that, but then the jobs took over. It got to the point where when we got home, we'd just sit and stare at our laptops, waiting for the phone to ring, either from her work or mine.
I stopped going to my Mason's meetings, because I wanted to be with her, just in case something happened with her work. Her work often left her in tears, or even in a rage. I wanted to be there to protect her, talk her down, or even go and help shovel the place out or fix whatever was broke. I've even left my own workplace to go help her. That job was killing her, and so it was killing our family. I think that's the biggest reason she moved - to get away from that and move faster toward our goal of living a self-sufficient lifestyle on an acreage. That dream is a dream that pulled us together in the first place.
Now, I want to go and help her make that dream come true.
Okay, that was much longer than I intended. :)
