So I've hit the breaking point in this. I've had a few issues tonight, but nothing much. Just a bit of swallowing issues and some dizziness. Whatever, I've had so much crap in the past. I'm now tackling the source.
For so long I thought there was no real source. And now I know what it is. It's my procrastination.
The truth is, I procrastinate everything. I don't sleep right, I don't do the things I want to do if they require effort, I rarely do work. And I'm slowly watching my life spiral into something it shouldn't be. I'm a bright girl, I won't be arrogant, but I'm sure my writing skills give it away that I'm not a teenager who tries not to make something of herself.
Every time I want something, it doesn't happen, because I don't put in the effort, I give up, and I continue my disgraceful 10+ hours a day on the computer lifestyle, and I beat myself up for not doing the right things to keep myself looked after.
I want to take upon this opportunity. I think that to truly defeat my anxiety, I must begin putting my life on track. I want to start doing work on the projects I've taken up, and then, when I really do start fulfilling myself, educationally, physically, hell, just getting out of the damn house, then maybe I will start to see this pain go?
I really would love some help from people to get my life up and running again. I don't know what it is that makes me this way, but I want it to stop, and the first thing to do is to WANT to make the changes. If anyone can give me some advice, to help me get my life organised, to help get everything into a routine that works for me, and get me out, happy, and healthy, then please, be my guest and help me out with some advice!
Thank you in advance, I really love self-help forums, especially when there are so many nice people willing to give drawn out responses in order to help people so much. :)