I used to be a worrier too. I say used to because through this program I have learnt the most wonderful thing...how to cope with the worrying ... by challenging my negative thougths. Its been my biggest breakthrough yet.
Right now I have a problem, a big worry so to speak...that oldest son of mine has "disappeared". He's going on 22. (Just to let everyone know that he is an adult..a Y, I learnt recently. Thanks Ashley. I last was in contact with him onWednesday past. He sent me a cryptic e-mail, said he was all messed up, but it at least said "I'll live" on it...My hubby is away, I don't have any other way to get hold of him. Six months ago this would have sent me to my bed , crying and worrying, thinking the worst. Sure, I am worried, and those "What if he's dead in a ditch" thoughts pop in, but I question them with "Ya, what if he's gone with the Reserves, and can't get to computer. " I keep telling myself that he's dramatic, always has been.I try to replace the negative with positive, and since I'm in a state of not knowing, I'm choosing to believe that he's fine, not dwell on what may or may not have happened.
I guess I'm trying to say that I'm now at a "normal" level for worrying. I am concerned, like any mother would be, but I can still function and hope for the best. Its like Sunny says..I've done everything I can at this moment, so I give it up to the "Universe".I don't believe in God anymore, in the tradtional Christian way....Lots of negative core beliefs there for me! but I do believe in spirituality and the power of the universe and its people. Thanks for listening to me, I needed to vent this today.
Sunny..at first I didn't get what you meant...AA? I do now though. Ha.ha.
Since I just bared my soul here, I want to add something...my real name...I'm tired of being called my dog's name...I've found myself , in my thoughts, referring to myself as Cleo....Maybe I should have picked a better handle...
Your friend,
Juanita