Hi, my Name is Eleen I´m from germany and I have to apologize in advance for my english, I hope everybody can understand what I write down! I had my first panic attack 5 years ago and on the first time I had no idea whats going wrong. After some panic attacks I started avoiding situations and I guess because of that I getting depressive. After spending more and more time at home, I consult a doctor and he gave me some soft antidepressant. After this event I think he don´t really care whats going wrong with me, but the medication started working and after a couple of month I started feeling the same person as before and stop taking the medication. This worked until yet. When I started to getting a panic attack, I could handle it on my own.
6 weeks ago I travelled to Australia for an exchange semester and the panic attacks coming back. Because I don´t wanna waste my time here at home, I consult a doctor and now I´m back on medication. But I have the feeling is more worse than before. I mean not the panic attacks, I´m more depressive and sometimes are really scared of beeing here and don´t come back home.
If I have a panic attack they come the most of the time unexpected. I started thinking and my heart beats faster. I know its sounds really funny, but the most of the time its because I think I can´t get as fast to a toilet. And because I have a nervous bladder the panic attack makes it more worse and then start the vicious circle.
With this program I try to understand, why I actually have this panic attacks!? Is it possible that anxiety and cause of that panic attacks are hereditary!? Is it possible that a event in the past activate this!? I mean before I had my first attack?
So far from me...
Eleen