Good Evening,
I signed up to this site about a week ago and after reviewing the tools and the forums I felt I should post an introduction. I am so impressed with the care and compassion everyone shows on this site. I am already encouraged.
I have experienced panic symptoms for about 25 years, starting at age 16. The situations that trigger anxiety or full blown panic attacks are flying alone, being alone far away from home (hours by plane), tall or very long bridges, driving along long distances to unknown places, tall buildings and getting stuck in elevators. I also experience anticipatory anxiety when flying (starting weeks in advance that escalate to the day of, then generally I am ok on the plane. The ride back though is typically rough.
I read a book on overcoming flying fears years back which gave me the tools to fly with others effectively. I avoid the tallest, longest bridges for the most part but I can usually function normally with 150 miles of home. I have never take any meds and went to a therapist for a few visit after a sever bout of depression (see below).
My biggest challenge is not anxiety and panic attacks per se but the worry about have a significant depression that seems triggered by prolonged anxiety and panic attacks over a period of time. This depression last for months and the thought of a recurrence is dreadful.
I am working the program after avoiding a overnight flight alone (week 2). Due to a job loss, my situation may require traveling for interviews without a support person and right now that thought is intolerable.
So I will let everyone how I am doing but I will say right now I am right tired of being tired. I do not want to grow, learn, manage, reduce, or overcome. I just want to be "normal" (whatever that means). With that said, I know the program will help if I work the plan so that is what I am going to do.
Thanks to those who read this and offer support, and I hope I can contribute and be supportive.
Good night...