I wanted to share my latest news with everyone. Firstly, I want you all to know that I still have GAD mixed with PTS, but no panic attacks anymore. I do have symptoms which I manage fairly well, no meds. now, but did at one time take Paxil. I want to share this because there is hope. I experienced the panic attacks for about 8 yrs, on and off and none for over 10 yrs. now. CBT has helped me greatly. I was a shy, timid person, would never speak up except maybe one on one and then terrified I might have said too much - there was always shame even though I may not have done anything wrong. So, from there to here today. I have received awards for some of the work I do and last night at a dinner - complete surprise to me - I received a certificate of merit from the higher ups at national level. In the past I would have squirmed, turned beet red, stammered something and run for the ladie's room after it was over. Last night, thanks to all of you who write in the forums and support and cheer one another on, I reacted in a surprised, happy way, smiled and accepted the award with grace and humility. Wow, not even one blush, not one butterfly in my stomach, imagine that! If you only knew how awkward I used to be in public you would understand what I'm trying to say. I could cry for all the missed opportunities - all the missed putting my hand up in school because I knew the answer but was too shy - all the missed business opportunities at work, the list goes on. So cheers to all of you - yes, we can overcome this disorder! I feel wonderful this morning and I wish this for each and every one of you too.
