I dont like taking medications, but not nervous about them. If they help thats a good thing.
I too was on a beta blocker in the past, along with a SNRI and it helped. I am not now due to seeing a different Pdoc and his views are different.
My goal is to ultimately not rely on meds. I am trying to "do the work" to get through this. Meds I feel are great short term, to stabilize us, so we can get to a point where we are able to work a program and get through this.
Its not an easy road and takes time. I started having panic attacks 7 years ago and alway turned to and relied on meds to "fix" me. They dont, we have to do the work.
Had I realized this long ago and gave it an honest effort, maybe I wouldn't have suffered so long.
I purchased Lucinda Bassets program a few years ago and went through it, but wasnt thorough and was still relying on meds. When meds werent enough I turned to additional self medicating with alcohol. Thats works great until it ruins your life.
Now I am attempting to do things the right way. This site, another preogram I came across, excercise and just plain taking good care of my self and learning new things.
I beat myself up over this for a long time. Its hard because friends, family, whoever, if they havnt experienced what we go through, they have NO idea what its like. They are seldom sympathetic and think we should just "man up" or whatever and the simple fact is, at a point we cant.
My panic attacks helped ruin my life. Today Im at a point where I am fighting back to have a new life.