Thanks Samantha, It makes me feel better to know I'm not alone but I hate that others are suffering with this problem too. It actually lifts a little of the burden off my shoulder and it seems like I am on the right track and will continue to do the lessons and homework. It is makes me feel better when I write down my anxious thoughts and panic attacks. I did not even realize I was having panic attacks until I joined this group. I felt so much shame with this and writing it down seems to take it out of me and on the paper, if that makes any sense. At the same time I can't pretend I don't have a problem so I'm seeing things for what they are. Thanks so much for helping me. Shel