Hi guys,
Well today was tough mental health wise but it was ok marriage wise. No miracles have gotten operated over the last 2 days but it was ok. Today I would say about two thirds of "The plan" got done. Then again I am just as guilty as he is for the other 3rd not getting doen so I have zilch to say on that lol. So I think it is a good start! 2/3 is pretty good! I would even say it is a passing grade! So, that helps a lot. It helps me feel less awful.
As for me I am tired and anxious today. Mostly I feel guilty and lame and like a failure. But I am challenging those thought and I am sure it will pass. I got nothing productive done today and that ways on me. My husband tells me to stop being so hard on myself. I feel like I am not being hard enough. But I know, there is no point in theese thoughts and feelings. All I can do is see what good I can do now and do my best.
! I am scared out of my wits though. I will be at my dadès appartment alone for 3 days (only 2 nights but still!!!). I needed time to think and my dad offered me his appartment in another town. So nice of him. So I am taking a train all by my lonesome, to a big city! A BIG one. Then I am taxiing myself over to his place and staying there for 3 days. You can understand that I am happy to get away and yet utterly terrified! But hey, we will see how it goes.
