hey yes you do worry, its good your mum is going with you for support etc and it will help to keep your mind pre-occupied. try not to worry, i no it easier said than done but at least you going for the treatment and that the main thing and what you can do to get better. theyre so much treatment these days, were quite lucky really. cant you call the hospital and speak to them and tell them your worries, they told me to if i was worried about treatment.
see i from kent near london and the hospitals round here are very unhelpful, same as councillors etc, iv bin put on weighting list for 6mnths. praying might get more help as im pregnant. men can be so unhelpful sometimes!! 
hey
are you from the uk to? not many people on hear seem to be. yea there is CIN 1,2,3. i think your best bet with the traffic etc is to leave yourself plenty of time to stop if you had to, bring some good music you can sing along to in car, and when your stuck in traffic or at lights they say the best thing to do is play the number plate game, add numbers up of the 1st person number plate infrnt u or make up funny words to take your mind of the waiting in the traffic.
hopefully the meds will calm you down to, have you got ages to wait for your treatment? have you talked to your husband about it?
Hi karla,
sorry to hear your going through the same thing with the pre-cancerous cells, its frightening aint it, and cant help imagining the "what ifs" which i know is a bad thing to do. Ive also been for the biopsy and now have to go for a large loop excision i think its called, it didnt say which or the CIN's i had, i know theres 1, 2 or 3 aint there? it just said pre-cancerous cells, and your right the longer ive avoided it im getting more anxious about going, were as if id gone straight away like the first time i would of been ok and it would be over with now. Congratulations on the pregnancy, can they not do anything at all untell the baby is born? Ive just recieved 5 diazepam from docs for when i have go hospital, so hopefully they will help me, sounds like the hospital near you is a waste of time, is there no others they can send you to? the hospital in my town dont have the equipment to do it so i have go to another town which takes half an hours drive which i think makes it worse for me as i hate stopping in traffic and at traffic lights and cos ive been there once before (3 mnths ago for the biopsy) i know how bad it is now.
Hey Sarah
I didnt do anything to take time for myself yesterday, reading books makes me more anxious cos my mind wonders to negative thoughts, ill have to try and think of some stuff that i think will help me. As i said to karla i got some diazepam this morning but not took any as they have only give me 5 so want save them for when it snearer the time to go to the hospital, no shes not give me anything else, well she gave me a card with her number on it, i dont know why they are making me wait another month as she said i was really depressed when she came and said she could see i was struggling and that she would get me some meds and come back in 4 weeks to see how im getting on then rang yest and said id have wait tell feb.
My partner is out at the moment and im in on my own, im feelin really anxious but im challenging myself to stay downstairs and not run of to my bedroom "safe place" like i usually do.
Thanks again, this site helps so much x
hey zoe
i definately think you have made a step in the right direction and by seeking help. i also have pre-cancerous cells, i have had a biopsy to take cells of my cervix to check for these and the results showed an area of CIN1 which required treatment of cold coalgulation, which scared the hell out of but you need treatment, otherwise facing cancer would be a lot worse. it like it says on session 1 about avoidance if you avoid a situation more than once it makes you more anxious right?i think it will defiantely help you to speak about your fears and maybe if you can speak to someone who has been through it. 1 problem for me is that i am now pregnant about 6weeks so i cannot have my treatment till after the birth which is going to make me more anxious when i finally do have it.
try and do some exercise as it a good way to relieve tension, and i would defiantely suggest discussing all mediaction available as some are better for each individual as every person varies.hopefully they will help.
i think also when you dont feel good try and spend some time with your children as this will help you and take your mind of things for a while
