THanks Breanne!
You are right I can do this. I have been working hard on challenging my anxious thoughts. I have also been challenging this stupid depression and doing my depression center homework religiously. I have gone back to yoga yesterday also. I keep track of my moods (anxiety and depression), my sleep patterns, the meds I take, how I am getting along with the hubby, my monthly cycle (sorry gentlemen, too much info I know), I started a crap/no crap list like CM although I do mine with stickers lol. So basically I am doing my best to get back on track! Everyday, I try to tackle a few things, but just a few. By now, my kitchen is clean, which is nice and I managed to make the hubby lunches all week (and myself of course)! I also made homemade suppers. The kitchen is so nice compared to the rest of the house I almost feel like sitting in there for the day lol. Oh and hubby helped too! And he didn't complain! So he helped with the kitchen and dishes and he even cleaned the bathroom! I might go sit there a bit too lol. So two rooms down! Oh and I tackle the giant mountain of laundry and am about to see the end of it. I know this all sounds very mundane to some of you but to me all theese things were just more crap on top of the crap I need to fix so it feels nice to get some of it out of the way.
On top of it, I manged to teach yesterday. I think it went well and I think me and my student will get along just great. I think I am doing well and not too rusty.
So that is where I am at right now. I still feel edgy and jumpy and all that but still calmer and not quite so overwhelemed. I still feel overwhelmed when I think in terms of all that needs to be done so I just don't lol! I think one laundry basket at a time.
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I hate that I am still taking the meds but they help me feel sane, more normal, more like myself, less like a pressure cooker ready to explode! So I take them. We will see what happens!
Anyway, sorry am rambling. all of this to say, I am getting back on track. I will be ok. I am a survivor, a warrior and I will be just fine :)
