Hello everyone . First of sorry for not being around for awhile now . Life at present is mentle
excuse the pun there .
Jo i went to my daughters meeting with the biggest pounding heart ever , felt sick and all that goes with nervousness and anxiety . I was determined to keep my gob shut and here them out first . Lol i can be quiet sometimes
. Well well , good job i didnt kick off . Seems my over active brain went into hypo-mode . They never mentioned abuse whats-so-ever . Just that she er touches herself . They have given me a few tips to tell her . Very very embrassing but think i have sorted it all now . One more catch up meeting and that should be the end of it . Yippee .
Ok why i have been missing ( and boy did i miss every single one of you ) . I have been quite bad and didnt want to say anything , felt a failure . Plus tbh , am really really sick of feeling nervous and edgy all the time . I suppose im just run down and tired but hey im a mum supposed to be tired . Thats what i tell myself . Beginning to get small panic attacks alot again , but will stress that its nothing like the beginning of the year . Thats purly to do with what i have learnt here .
I saw my doctor today , finally gave in . The meds im on seem to be good for awhile , and i feel bloody great . Oh its so nice to feel like that , even if its just before i drop off to sleep lol . Any-hoo's he has doubled my dose , so later on i will be doing the old body adjusting time thing .
Had a letter staurday , for my Op . Its only next Monday ekkkkkkk that wasnt much notice .
Plus i will be in and out in a day . That im very anxious about .
Arghhh doing my usual post and run but its school pick up time . Nice to be back
TTFN to you all
CD xx