Hiya CD!
Sorry to hear you had such a tough day yesterday and glad to hear you are better now. I am also glad your nightly PAs are not as bad as before. One way or another they are still annoying.
Me I have been working really hard the last few days and had little time to take good care of myself as such my anxiety levels are higher. As such, the nightly wake up thingy are here in full force making it hard for me to really fall asleep easily. But I do need my sleep to finish up this big project. As such I have had to take my clonazepam (Rivotril or Klonopin, depending if in America or Europe) to help me relax beofre I sleep. I had not taken any in a while and was feeling pretty happy with myself. Now I feel a but guilty abuot taking so much in the last week. But hey, I keep telling people I think it is ok to take meds when you need them so I guess I should apply that to myself!
As for you eating things htat are not so good, we all deserve that once in a while. and hey we will keep it a secret!
Sorry to hear you tablets make you feel "zombiefied" during the day. That feeling might still pass though once your body gets used to the medication. I used to take a medication that did that at first and the feeling had passedin my case. I don't take those meds anymore but not for that particular reason though :).
Lol I can just imagine you sleeping in a chair while you kids are there with their hands in the cookie jars! I used to do that to my mom! Poor mommies can't even get a wink! I think being a parent looks like th toughest job in the world! 24/7!
As for the paddling pool lol I can just imagine your younger siblings reactions when you stole their pool! And yes, when it gets hot I do want one. I am just too chiken. I can't begin to imagine what my husband would say if I set up a paddling pool in our backyard deck! HAving no kids I would have few arguments when he would ask me if I have flipped my lid lol. Plus, the neighboors second floor windows look right into my backyard. I can just imagine their reaction to it. and oye bathing suit..."shudders". But yes, the paddling pool sounds nice on a hot summer day!
Have fun cooking supper. I was taking a break but now I am off to get back to work. Bleh!
so dont tell DM . Good job shes away lol . 
. The kids had a great time so did my husband and so did i we stayed there four hours . She wanted me back in the evening to the BBQ . I did but only for less than an hour . I was exhusted and anxious-ish . 
i didnt last that long . Plus its the first time i have worn a swimming costume in 14 YEARS whoahhhhhhh .
