Hi Minn
I completely relate to this topic. I have battled this my whole life... lol..
For me a bit of it has to do with my ocd I think.. like when I was younger I couldn't get my hair "just right"...(the 80's and early 90's..lol)..or my socks not sitting just right... ridiculous but true. And my perception of my body instead of what it really is... I'm 5' tall and have always been very petite but even at 100lbs I was "fat" in my eyes...and now I'm heavier than that after 2 kids and 9 years later...and I'm still "fat" in my eyes...
This is what I'm currently working on though and I'm using The Secret.... that like thoughts attract like things... so negative thoughts about being heavy attract extra pounds... so now I'm using positive self talk...and telling myself I'm just right for me etc. and I have to admit it feels pretty good.
That being said in todays world of marketing and advertising... those pressures to be thin or look a certain way are definately out there whether we believe they affect us or not...I think they do even through our subconscious thinking
Well that's my two bits...
And Minn...if you're even half as beautiful as the person you've demonstrated to be on this site with your kind thoughts and heart...you're a looker for sure :)
The mirror means nothing if you already have preconceived notions of yourself... that's my problem for sure :)
Keep me posted how you're doing with this and I will too....
DM