A friend called me yesterday, but I screened on her. I don't really want to call her back because I'm afraid she will ask to hang out and I don't want to explain myself that I don't want to. I wouldn't know how to say it and I don't like talking on phones(I'd prefer not to talk at all!). But we are involved in this 'chat' room thing and I have no problem typing there and I'm afraid she will see that I've written there, but didn't call her back. I had a nightmare because of it, this morning. Does it sound to you guys that my anxiety may be led by my personality towards my friends? I am a shy girl, but comparing to the really socially anxious people, I didn't think I was... but maybe it's all from my friends? My sister has told me a couple of times that I attach myself to friends too much, but I don't know how to be acquainted with someone and not give your best or care. I really don't like to half -a** my relationships because I judge it as being a hypocrite. I don't know how to accept that I am one. Man, I can keep going with this. I write too much.
