I can avoid panic attacks by not doing things. I guess they're called triggers? Well, I have an Army of triggers watching me. I do get spontainous PA's they you can't avoid. The problem with doing nothing is I feel guilty,Lazy,and dirty,(not cleaning). Sometimes I punish myself. I tell myself ok If you don't do anything than you can't read, watch tv,listen to music, etc. Then I fall asleep. Which makes it worse. I don't exersize, I gain weight, It's like I am committing mental suicide or something. OK I confess, This is all about taking a shower today. If I just do it, I'll feel better. I created rules for my showering. Everytime I skip a day I have to do a double washing. That means it will take me about 1hr 10 mins in the shower, or 50 mins. if I don't make any mistakes. It's all a ritual routine. I am going to try something today. I'm gonna laugh at my mistakes,and do overs. I'll let you know what happens,IF, I take it?>?>?>
