Yesterday I went to my Cognative behavioural therapy session. I showed my to do list for university, my therapist said keep thinking rational. and try to do the essays instead of trying to make them great, she said one essay only is 3% since 7 essays will count for 20% of the course...
Thats why she said dont put too much effort in one essay and try to focus on getting it done. Easy to say but how will I convince my brain to just do the essays without much effort.. i always like taking my time for them, how could i feel ok to be done with ok but not great essays? I guess that she meant its exopure for me to do thing diffirently, but thats not a big enough reason for my brain to actually be contented with less achievement.
My goal for today is/was to write one essay, they are actually called short reports on Disgrace by JM Coetzee and then read 65 pages from the novel Bitter Fruit. But its already 10 pm and i need to eat dinner yet, i keep wondering is this doable. Although I got up today at 5 pm, so ill probably work untill late in the midnight or till the next moring. As long as i dont aviod it because of fears and doubts, and get it done anyway! I need to be strong to do it!
"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them."-Walt Disney
