HEllo Dina,
I just wanted to day that I could relate to you.
First, that too full feeling can send me in a panic too. It really annoys me when it does. But there it is, it makes me feel like i need to lie down do deep breathing and wear absolutely nothing tight since my own body feels too tight on me lol Just wanted to say you are not alone in this.
Second, I wanted to say you are not alone in having had a good life and still having panic disorder. As I have said in another post : "But I think my life was pretty good all in all. My mom is super great and my dad and me get along much better now When I was a child I cannot recall any abuse from anyone. On paper, my life looks perfect. Hard-working father, loving mother, great siblings, financially comfortable... just perfect. Yet I developped GAD and panic disorder early on. And yeah, my life in reality was not as perfect as it looked on paper but to me it doesn't explain my disorder per se." And I really meant it! I was not abused. I Should have been having a great childhood but I was a child that was afraid all the time! But my mom is and was great and my dad is and was good to me. And I have great siblings! When I say my life wasnèt perfect as it looks, all I mean is that my dad was a workaholic and my mom felt sad cause he was never home. And that we were uprooted a lot for my dadès work. HArdly traumatic events. And yet I was a child that was afraid all the time and I couldnèt explain why. Later as a young teen, I was diagnosed with GAD and Panic Disorder with agoraphobia. And I still couldnèt figure out why. As I said I had a good childhood. And the psychiatrists who were sure I must have been abused. But I knoww darn well I wasn't and that is what I told them. At first, I felt bad that I had this ÈdisroderÈ for no reason. Why was I so scared and such, why did I have depression on top of it if my life was good? What kind of ingrate was I to complain and be so messed up when my life was actually a good one? But then I go over that and figured, I am not the first in my family to have this and certainely not the last. That is part of who I am. Anyway, I digress lol. I just wanted to say, I really can relate to what you said. I have had a good life and still I have this. It makes it hard to figure out the why of this. Then again I have learned I do not need to know why I am the way I am. I just need to accept myself and learn what I can do to cope and live happily :)
Anyway, thanks Dina for sharing with us :) I really could relate to what you wrote and it is nice to see a story that sounds like mine out there.
-Diva