Hello, everyone! My name is Kelli. I recently turned 21 and I have experienced panic attacks, anxiety, and depression for over 10 years. It seems to have all started when I was a victim of incest from my 5-year-older half-brother at the age of 7. I am now 'over' the incident and fully understand that it wasn't my fault, but the depression and anxiety has remained and evolved.
My anxiety attacks seemed to progress to agoraphobia back in May or so. I had a good job then as a technical support agent and I mostly enjoyed it, but I started having panic attacks every time I worked. This would cause me to have to leave early or just not go at all. My supervisor tried to help and understand me, but there wasn't much that he could do, so in the end, I had to leave the job.
This put me and my husband into a bad financial situation where his income alone wasn't enough to sustain us, so we had to rely on his parents and mine for quite a while. In this time I applied for SSI, but the process was taking too long.
It became so bad that I eventually had to start looking into jobs again. I found one at Wal-Mart and tried being a 3rd-shift-stocker, but I lasted 2 days before my panic attacks caused me to avoid the place altogether. I didn't even return to pick up my check.
Now I have a job as a data entry operator. It's a good job and isn't all that difficult, and I'm an excellent typist, however, in these first two weeks I have already experienced two anxiety attacks where I have had to leave work early!
This is naturally very disconcerting to me, my husband, and the rest of my family. They don't understand what I'm going through and say that it is 'an easy job,' that I'm 'not trying hard enough,' and that I need to 'get over it and stay at work.' Most of this comes from my mother. My husband has tried to be supportive, but I can sense that he's frustrated with me because he has to carry all of the weight when it comes to money and his income just isn't enough.
He said tonight, after I came home after an attack, that he was 'tired of this' and that if I didn't work, he would go home and leave me. I know that he wouldn't do this but it still hurt badly. I am joining this program in hopes that I will be able to keep this job and enjoy it. If I am able to kee