Has anyone here ever tried ativan and it seemed to make things worse? For the most part, ativan has been a God sent to me (although I seldom use it). I felt the need to take it today and I usually take 0.5mg but took a touch more than that today. I did okay for the first few hours (I kept busy), but after taking a bath I felt much worse. I don't know, I just felt unsure of myself and pretty scared. Then when I got out of the tub my boyfriend and I had an argument. At this point, I seriously felt like I was going crazy in my head. I felt emotional and at moments, like I needed to get out of my own body. It was all too much. Who knows maybe between ruminating here and there, and misconstruing certain feelings from the sedative as me going insane instead, well, maybe that was enough to make me feel crazy in my head. I just thought that once you take it, you are good to go for most of that day. When I stopped and got busy, things got better and felt more normal again. I am just curious if anyone else has had bad experiences off their ativan before? Or if you know if stress or ruminating can cause you to panic in your head but not in your body (since you are on a sedative), which as a result makes you feel even more loopy? I really thought I needed to go to the hospital tonight because I just felt SO high and scared and convinced I was losing it or that this is what mania is (one of my greatest fears). Do you think maybe its simply too much focusing or worrying on my behalf? I dont know how to stop obsessing when I am so aware all the time now, and so introspective. Now that the ativan is wearing off I am feeling like I am slowly coming back to myself again. I really didn't think you can begin to feel messed up as well when on these benzo's. Any responses would be much appreciated, as always. Sorry for writing so much, but it makes me feel better sometimes to let my concerns out. Thank you all so much.
