it has been a while , how is everyone doing? me myself I am doing well but I drank, yesterday , was almost two months . its funny , I feel so angry at myself .why do I love something I hate ? doesn't really make sense . I hate drinking because of the person I become, because of the ways act , and for the shame , and over and all those feelings physical and emotional that come. I do sooo well , almost two months I think nada and them boom! I self destruct. something I tend to do and have done so much in the past. ugh anyone that can relate or at least have suggestions ? hope everyone is doing well. I like coming here so much support and understanding .