Thanks High Tower , youre right need to focus on me. yesterday they wouldnt stop , have a drink, loosen up, relax, i said no , no , no , but ended up having one . did go over board like night before but still caved . but again that has to do with me i could have stuck to my decision . so i have some goals to work on that i am setting for myself. that is sticking to my decision and trusting myself. no ddrink its a love hate relationship with alcohol ( hard to explain) and to find things to help me when i feel i need to run from my emotions through food or alcohol. ( i suppose find ways to handle them? ) no clue . Thank you so much i like the sound of that drink sounds yummy ,., will try it