Hi Everyone....I'm new to this site and hoping to find ways to change my drinking habits or possibly stop altogether. I was raised by an alcoholic mother who at the age of about 40 progressed to serious alcoholism. I promised myself that I would never be like her. Well here I am at the age of 46 and I feel my drinking is taking hold of my life. I have been drinking a lot more often in the past year and a half. It all started when I tried to quit smoking. I gave up one bad habit and gained another. I did start smoking again it the drinking didn't slow down. Today I'm celebrating 4 months smoke free and hopefully its forever this time, but I need to get control of alcohol. I don't drink everyday, but it's at least 3-4 times a week. White wine is my drink of choice and when I start drinking it, I can't stop. The next day I don't remember a lot of things from the night before. Last night being one of those nights.thankfully I don't go to bars, I drink at home but I do have a gorgeous 9 year old daughter and I don't want my drinking to affect her. I want to get this under control and be able to drink maybe once a week on the weekend. I'm sick of feeling crappy after a binge night and I am always angry and ashamed of myself the next day. I don't do anything I regret, but I do hate that I forget conversations I've had. I feel so much better when I don't drink and I'm well aware of this being a problem. I keep promising myself that I will stop but after 4 days maximum of not drinking, the urge is too strong and I cave in. I hope someone can provide some advice on how to get a handle on this. Thanks.