Thank-you Julie,
The one thing that's truly helping me stay sober is something someone said at an AA meeting not to long ago, it is,
I don't believe in God or anything for that matter, but the one thing i believe in is curiosity i know what will happen to me when i drink, i don't know what will happen when i don't."
That saying (it was a little different, don't remember the exact wording) stuck out to me like a sore thumb, i went and thanked him at the next meeting for saying those words, he didn't remember saying it, but it really helped me and i will never forget it.
I know what will happen when i have even just one drink it will easily turn into 9, 10 even 11, then ill get drugs and sit on a VLT machine, feeling crappy about the choices im making. So if I dont even have that one, I won't feel ****ty about myself, ill wake up happy that i made it another day!! Quitting every addiction i had cold turkey was the hardest thing, but each day it gets a smudge easier.