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7 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11

Thank you Ashley! It will sound very childish, but no, I am ashamed to go and see my family doctor. I am lying to my doctor when she asks me about my drinking during my yearly physical. When I ended up in the hospital almost five years ago my doctor got all reports and she knows I have a problem. I don't really talk to anyone about it. My pride stands in my way. I am a grown up woman and I know it's irresponsible but I can't help it. She suggested AA but I won't go. At least not now, I want to try myself and see how it works.

7 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11216

Hi Dahlia,

I am sorry to read what you are experiencing and how scared you are. I can understand why you are scared and reaching out for help is very smart. The best way to avoid any potential problems with withdrawal is to talk to your doctor about this. Your doctor can give you support in this and ensure that any withdrawal you experience when you choose to cut down or abstain will be safe. Is talking to a medical professional an option for you?

Ashley, Health Educator

Here to help :)

7 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11

It's been a while since I posted here. I want to thank you for your reply, I appreciate it a lot. It didn't work very well the last time I tried so I am planning another try this coming Wednesday. Thank you for your suggestions too, I will do whatever I can. I simply have no other choice and am just so tired of living this way. So Wednesday it is. I am preparing myself again and will incorporate some reiki too, I know it will help.

7 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11216

Hi Dahlia,

I am sorry to hear you are so scared. I can understand your concern. Alcohol withdrawal can be dangerous. Please talk to your doctor about alcohol and your plans on cutting back. Your doctor will be able to help you in this respect.

I think it is amazing you were able to quit smoking. What did you learn from that experience? How can you applied what you learned now?

It has been quite a few days since you last posted. How are you feeling now?

Ashley, Health Educator

Here to help :)

7 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1562

Welcome to the forums, Dahlia. About 10 years ago, I entered the fellowship of AA, emotionally bankrupt. Full of fear when I will pick up my next drink. I had no idea what the program of AA will do for me. But then sticking with it, finding a competent sponsor, reading and listening to lot of workshops that is freely available on the internet, I was able to get past few days then weeks, then months and years. Today I could say, that the obsession that went away, never came back. Fear of drinking also went away. With desire to drink lifted, I could now face life on lifes' terms. You may visit one of the local AA groups or visit some online AA groups on the internet to get a feel for it before going to a in person meeting.

Good luck

7 years ago 0 +0 / -0 348

Dahilia,

Hello and welcome to the site. You have taken a very brave step by admitting your problem and often that is the first step. You have made the decision to stop tomorrow, do you have a plan for what you will do with your time other than drinking? For me and many others on this site, that time on the clock to say it was "OK" to start drinking or just the thought of not drinking are very difficult. Having a plan how you will spend your day or evening allows some comfort as you know it will be a difficult time.

I would suggest you read through the threads here as well as the Toolbox. This weekend will get here soon enough, take the days as they come. Come back here for support, you will find very knowledgeable people here that have gone through similar experiences.

As for you past seizure, I'm not a medical professional so I cannot help you with that but if you feel your health is in danger I suggest seeking medical help.

Good luck to you.

7 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11

Hello! My name is Dahlia and I am here because I believe I need help and gain some control of my life. I am very scared and intimidated by all my troubles. I browsed quickly this website and decided to give it a try. I have already won one addiction which was smoking and although I am grateful I was able to kick it, I remember all too well how agonizing it was. I am 49 years old and to be honest I think I have had this problem for about 20 years. There were times when I was totally out of control, the last few years however have been different. I have found a safe dose of my lovely wine that allows me to get up in the morning and go to work. This last weekend however I realized that this safe dose is a killer and is not safe at all. I barely get up in the morning and drag myself to see our patients at nine a.m. (dental office), otherwise I'd loose my job as it happened before. Twice.

Four years ago I got a seizure and ended up in emergency. I stayed there for nine days because they had to get me back to normal. Today and ever since I am scared to death it would happen again. I did my research and I know that seizures tend to happen when you stop drinking (I drink every day my 3 glasses). This fear kills me and it's on my mind all the time.

This last weekend I think I hit rock bottom. I drank 4 litres of wine in three days. That's why I'm scared. I drink. I get up, go about my business and drink more. I had no idea I could drink that much. And still be alive functioning without an IV in my veins.

My fear for today and for now in general? I decided to make a change and stop tomorrow. I made that decision and I need to stick to it. But I am really really afraid. It is my dad's birthday this coming weekend and I am just scared I will not make it. I am afraid that the seizure will get me again when I stop drinking. It happened only once but it was once too much. I missed quite a few family celebrations because of this problem and my parents have no clue what is really happening with me. I can't even imagine how my mum would feel once she finds out...

Only one thing makes me happy now: I am brave enough to reach out and somehow I already feel some comfort in my heart knowing that someone will read it and will care about me.

Please help me with this.

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