Hello to everyone! My name is Tammy and I have been sober five days. There are a good amount of reasons why I chose to become sober and I will elaborate further on those as time goes on. For right now I am focused on getting my head together and dealing with the symptoms of withdrawal. I started out on my own but I know full well I will get not much further in continuing sobriety without the help of others. Today I have a mix of feelings: fear, being overwhelmed, shame at the destruction I have done to myself and others, remorse and astonishment regarding the total mess I've made of my life, etc. and so forth. Inwardly I know I will say nothing that surprises any other alcoholic and probably has felt at one time themselves. I am grateful today to be able to find resources such as these forums to develop new friendships and form strategies in the name of finally taking care of myself. Thanks to all for listening!!!