Thank you foxman for the reply. I read many excerpts from the AA book you recommended over the weekend. I got a lot of insight from that, so thank you. I do realize I'm powerless when it comes to alcohol. My husband sees no problem because I only drink about once a week, if that, and sometimes go weeks without drinking at all. He doesn't understand what alcohol does to my mind, and the sick way I think about it. I have sat him down more than once and tried to explain, but he is in denial, and just says I need to "just have one drink and be done." I think he likes when I drink, because I'm more relaxed and fun. I've given much thought about how I've improved my drinking over the last year, and I'm working on identifying my triggers. I've learned what the "pink cloud" is and have definitely experienced that! I believe one of my triggers is dealing with social situations. I have social anxiety, and drinking really helps me with it. I'm going to work on finding new ways to deal with my anxiety, and have some good ideas already. I'm looking forward to checking in with my successes, and finding strength from you all in times of weakness. Thank you, again, for being there for me.