so it's been quite a bit since I've been on here. I have in this time honored my pledge to my husband and my family. Which is I will not hide and drink, I will be honest and I will moderate. Except for 2 times since this January and 1 in November of last year, I haven't been drunk, I haven't over served myself and I haven't gone on a "binge" since ( I believe) January of 2015. So on the wagon for almost a year and a half. When I look at my over indulgent times it startled me that at my age I still am pushed by peer pressure. My November 2015 horror show was due to trying to fit in and peer pressure. Don't get me wrong--- I own it. I can say no. But the fact that I was influenced by others to party it up bothers me and proves to me that we cannot let our guard down. Booze--will make your brain so mushy that even upon death medical students cannot dissect it. Omg! I recently had a good friend that I didn't know had an alcohol/ drug problem. She's now dead. I didn't know...no one but her kids did. I have another friend ( the one I was with on thAt bad November nite) that is so obviously struggling with a problem. So much so that people think he is getting eArly dementia. That scared me into wanting to reach back out here. I haven't felt that I had any "wisdom" to offer you all. So I just faded away. I've kept up with a couple of the friends I met on here, one of which I feel like I can tell anything too. That made me also think- even if I am not wise I can give support and be a cheerleader for successes! Because no one should have to exist alone. Be kind to each other and be forgiving be accepting because all of us have something. So I'm back and going to try to be active. Don't want to fade away like I did. Peace! :-)
