Hello all. Its my first time here and I need help. I just did a few of the online tools and now feel anxious and sick to my stomach about how much I rely on alcohol. I always knew I had a problem but never really wanted to admit it to myself. I eat well and exercise daily so always fooled myself into believing that would balance the booze out. It doesn't. I'm in shock. Anyway, my short term goal for now is to just cut back.... drastically! I'm worried about the cancer risks and liver disease because I have an amazing husband and 3 young boys who need their mama. But I don't have alot of self control... once I get started, I don't stop til I'm basically stumbling up to bed or passing out. Its horrible to think that my boys have seen me numerous times intoxicated and can always tell when I've had to much (slurred words, giggling, falling asleep on the couch). Wow. I'm so ashamed. I need to fix this before its too late. Anyway, I'm glad I found this place. I've read some other posts and everyone is so supportive and non judgmental. I could use some of that. To be honest, I just finished my 2nd glass of wine and I'm done for the night. I'm shook up. One day at a time right?