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9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 28

Haven't had a drink in almost a month. It's weird I wake up most days check this site for some strength and inspiration. And then I tell myself "nothing is more important than me staying straight". I sometimes think to myself this is a selfish statement to say. But the reality is- if I don't stay sober it will eventually cost me everything. So I know the statement is true for me. Drinking almost always made me feel horrible, full of regret and eventually took over as a huge focus in my life. So for today and as far as I can see into the future sobriety is the most important thing to me. -K

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 20

That's the best you could have done. That's where it starts. You did great. I'm glad you were able to stop yourself. I let myself think that I will be okay, but i know now that the easiest thing for me should be not grabbing it at all. The hardest is when i start, i dont wanna stop, so it's only best to stay away. That's the solution to our problem.

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9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11

Thanks for that, Dook. I was walking to the store tonight to pick up a few treats for everyone and thought about buying a bottle of wine. Didn't do it. Tried to concentrate on the quiet night, the crunch of the snow under my boots and the cold breeze on my face. I tried to be as present as I could be and for tonight, that worked. Will read for a while and go to bed early; I feel relieved and grateful for this day.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 20

I've also fooled myself into believing i could just have a drink or two. It has happened before but getting wasted has happened much more. People like us should not be touching not even one drink. We ahould avoid it at all cost. Always. We will always go back to that behaviour. It sucks, but I've come down to that clonclusiom that i have to stop in total before something worse happens to me. I know i have to stop and now we have to take action and just stop. Easier said than done. We have to be stronger. I'm so happy without it and once i do it i ms down for all the stupid things i did he noght prior. Im at the gym 6 days a week but one night out always messes things up when i do that. I don't want that life. I dont wana lose myself and you shouldnt either.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11

I understand so well about the people you love being enough motivation to stop drinking. At least, they sure should be. Yet somehow, they can't compete with the urge to drink and that reality feels so awful to me. I have stopped drinking for several weeks in the past, but always fool myself by telling myself I can occasionally have a couple of glasses of wine with dinner when we go out. I tell myself I can drink casually and infrequently and that is just not true. How do you stop this cycle from repeating itself?

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 20

I'm in the same boat. When i start, i can't stop. Im losing everything because of it. I dont want to lose the closest people to me and that should be enough motivation. Then i always say i won't do it again and i do when i know its not a good idea.

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9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 557

I am dreaming of a 30 days sober. Have the hard task to tell my mom I cannot speak to her for a while, she is a trigger. Hard,,, but will have to do it. Since my dad died, I called her every day and if I don't call her, she asks me why I did not call...

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