Hi Zoey and welcome!!! Please know you have support here. I'm a few days shy of being 3 weeks AF. My drink of choice was wine. I would drink glass after glass. I was a clock watcher. At a certain time, I'd start up. I was loosing my life. The first few days were extremely difficult, but it gets better. Please take some time to use the tools on this website, and read posts in the forums. Reading has helped me so much. Best of luck!