Yes exactly Jakelad I am so sick if it all literally tired and exhgausted from the whole cycle. from having that first drink to wanting to party all night to most likely making a complete fool of myself one way or another . waking up with the big "oh crappp" and the what happened and the hoping it wasnt awful and all that . guilt , physically ill, self anger.....just sooooo exhausted from doing that to myself. i can no longer do it i also surrender.
