Hi Desperate! And ye all! You have most likely done a very good thing joining this site and let it out. My situation is pretty similar, though my husband doesnt hate me, only the fact that Ive hidden my drinking. And though I dont drink much or often, it is the hiding it that hurt my family. I has taken me long to admit it to myself, but this site gets it out of your system, and it is an important step to admit and talk to others. Stay strong! And keep in touch with the rest of us!