Thank you David. I'm so tired. I really want kick this thing's butt, it sure has kicked mine!! I'm so ashamed of my behavior while drunk, slurring, acting like a fool. Real attractive! One drink leads to eight. Then I pass out, hardly remember what I said and to whom. What a life! I want a new life. A sober life. One where I'm a responsible person free from "the poison". Thanks for your reply.