You guys are all being so strong! LisaDawn making it through five
days -- that's the hardest, we all know that first terrible couple
of weeks too well! John on day 17 today (yay!), and Dave just shy of 2
months. I know that Splitimage is over 18 months non (wow!) and foxman is
going on something like 7 years. The successes on this site are so
important to read about. Over the summer, I saw successes from Charmain, Rob9, mizzysoleil, mamasita, and so many others. It is a huge help to
me to keep reading this.
I have made it through 68 days sober. I decided to count
it in days, because that somehow feels more powerful this morning. You
know, it's a nice, big number. This has been a stressful and very busy
week, and I probably went through 2 six-packs of diet Coke yesterday,
but it's better than 2 six-packs of beer. I also ate more than I wanted
to, but again, it's better than consuming an entire bottle of wine.
Dave is right, and avoiding alcohol as a daily habit does get easier. The thoughts
still crop up, but less and less often. The mindless habit is broken.
Instead of automatically reaching for a glass of wine, now I
automatically reach for my soda. I do need to break my addiction to diet
Coke, but not right now. That will come in its own time, and right now
it's keeping me from alcohol. That is so much of the battle, right
there. I know what you're saying about the constant thoughts that no one
can see, but just acknowledging these thoughts is an essential part of
being able to deal with them. And I know that a slip may happen. I hope it never does, but if so, I just hope I can keep it all in perspective.
Keep strong, guys... let's make it through another day.
