Hi Vincenza,
I have not been totally alcohol free, I have my moments. I'm finding the more importance I put on myself, who I am, where I want to go I don't necessarily feel the need to drink.
I have put so much importance behind what people are thinking about me, what are they saying about me, I've basically locked myself into a mobile prison cell. Walking through life, day by day, feeling worthless and use less.
I digested all of these hateful words from people I started to believe they were true. As if I held absolutely no value to anything. After eating/digesting a type of food you absolutely despise, you get tired of it and want to change direction. I'm changing a direction and I'm not going to stop.
I have the upper hand on the battle FINALLY, and I'm not quitting until I'm the victor.
I'm tired of dealing with my brainwashed cognitive behaviour trying to kick me down when I know otherwise. I welcome it to keep kicking me, but I'm getting stronger and stronger and eventually be the one doing the kicking.