Camiol,
I too understand how work can drive you over the edge, one way or another. It can be so overwhelming, especially when the money you are earning is absolutely crucial.
I too detest my job, (well, there is a tiny bit of it that is ok....mainly that I am nowhere near any bosses! lol)
Other than that it is bad.
It sounds like you are doing what you can to alleviate the problem as quickly as you can. Meanwhile you mentioned there are workmates who feel as you do. That can be a great comfort. I would also document all of your stuff just in case you ever need it. You just never know and having stuff logged down in writing can make all the difference when needed. Plus it just helps to validate your feelings. You can actually see you're not the crazy one.
My job sends me out of town and makes ME pay for gas, use my vehicle to carry their stuff, and pay for my own food, which of course costs at least 2x's as much on road, and makes me pay for my own hotel to stay while I work. lol
it's true. I had never heard of anything so crazy before, but I was desperate for work, beyond desperate actually.
So, I took it.
Some weeks I simply break even....now how is that for crazy....work all week at a hard job for nothing! it is true.
I will tell you though, I did contact an attorney about this as I thought their practices were illegal as I am an employee not an independent contractor. Anyway, I may or may not pursue that but I set an appt. to talk about it anyway.
Meanwhile I continue to hunt for another avenue of work.
It sounds like you may be trapped inside an office with someone ( a boss?) who is out of control and they can make your life a living hell.
About exercise, I mentioned I use that trampoline thing, the small ones, wow they are very good at stemming "urges" to drink...., I don't know how, but it happens almost immediately. I am out of shape so I can only do it for a few seconds, yes, you read that right, seconds! b4 I must stop but it really helps and is easy. They cost around 35-45 dollars. I had actually sold my other one becuase I was so broke! But I got a new one and I drug it with me on the road. I knew I would need it this trip. Maybe that could help.
I am so glad you wrote and shared about your work because it is so helpful to read that another person is feeling that way too, just like you said.
I wish you great success!
Siobhan
