Hey Debbie! I don't think you're a coward for being so afraid of taking meds. It's so hard to know what is the right thing to do. All we can do is try. :) And yes, I am very proud of you for going to the ER! Especially because I know how terrified you are of going to the doctor's office! It takes a lot of strength to face what you fear and I think you did a wonderful thing! Always remember that you are stronger than you feel - You have proven that by getting up every day knowing all too well what the day brings.

Hi Vickers, I am feeling a little better just real weak and kind of shell-shocked, I have been assigned another primary I will never go back to that one who refused treatment or the other one consumed with greed. I will fill the script for the other Anti-B tomm, it seems like the infection is gone, he said the urine culture looked good, I am SO terribly afraid of the anti-B Vickers after the Levaquin disaster I just know I will get bad side effects, the hepatitis and closing of the airways scare me, I got scary ones from Levaquin so now of course I think I will from the new one, the nurse did say that sometimes what I took is enough to clear it, what I thought I would do is fill it and if I notice just one tiny symptom of the infection I will immediatly take it, I am hoping to get into the new Docs tomm or the next day and have a urine culture done and it it shows alright I won't take it, I know I sound like a coward Vickers but the taking the levaquin sent me to ER and I am terrified it will happen again, I am going to ask the new primary for "amoxicillian" I know its safe and it will not hurt me, but I will have the script near-by Vickers and hopefully the new Doc will be kind and help me. THank you for your support its been a rough week, you would of been proud of me at ER Vickers I got through it much better than I expected. I hope you are well and the kids are, I know its hard to get the computer lately, my son has a older used one in his room so that helps. Let me know how you are. God bless, Debbie.

How are you feeling today Debbie? I am glad that you were able to get checked out at the A&E -- take care of yourself...and get lot's of rest... Have a great day and let us know how you are doing... Best, B

I had a pretty decent day yesterday and now all the fear is coming back. I wish everyone would stop saying I did not get good care at the ER, I guess after the primary refused to see me and the other office treated me so bad I was just grateful to be shown a little compassion the Doctor and nurse at ER were very nice. My husband and others cannot believe that all these medical professionals are not concerned about vomiting blood and the hot acid in my throat and the pain and reaction to the antiobotic. They did not really address my panic there perhaps becaue I held it together and did not fall apart. Do you think the ER was competent?? I feel so scared weak and shaky today, I am going to be alone tonight with my son when my husband works and I am SO afraid the vomiting blood and codl chills and shaking will start again. Was I bleeding internally when that happened?? I wish they had done an upper-GI at the ER, I am not taking the Macrobid yet, the UTI seems almost cleared up and I am terrified to take another one since the Levaquin caused all this pain and trouble. Why am I so scared today, yesterday was alright! I hate when this happens. Please send prayers, Debbie.

Debbie im sure you are only as tired as you are because of all that you have had to deal with lately i know after i have high anxiety and or panics i feel exhausted so you need some good R&R pamper yourself Debbie you deserve it ;) Lulu..

Hi Lulu, Thanks for your concerned reply. I did a little better today I am just very tired almost like an exhaustion probably from all the worry and pain the last few days, thats a good idea to give my body a rest from the harsh medicine, I am almost scared to take it now after what happened with the other one, I am going to buy some pepicid for my tummy. I hope you are well and having a great day. God bless, Debbie.

debbie, i am proud you got threw the er. you are a strong person you just have to till your mind to do it and do it. debbie, we have to reprogram ours minds.how are you feeling? i sweat in my sleep sometimes too. i think it was i am in a really heavy sleep. the chills thats from being sick. you have a infection. are you taking antiboctics? the only one i take is z-pak. my husband has had it with me too. they just dont understand why they cant fix us or why we cant just snap out of it. debbie, we will get threw this. how is your son doing? is he going to school? my daughter goes back monday.she is starting the 2nd grade. post me back. hugs gina

Good on you Debbie thats great that you were able to go to the ER alone im glad the doctors treated you better you didnt deserve the treatment you got the other day.Why dont you try taking the antibiotics when there is another adult with you i understand that its scary taking new meds especially after you reacted the way you did with the previous one but the doctor said it was gentler so hopefully it will do its job without upsetting you.Also they are usually run off their feet in the ER so maybe thats why they wernt as thorough as you would have liked and i dont think they treat 'mental illnesses' as they do the usual reasons like broken arms or burns that people go to the ER for dont you think? Thats just my experience anyway.Goodluck Debbie keep soldiering on. ;) Lulu..

I did not post yesterday, I could not get out of bed and finally my husband insisted I go to the ER, I hate hospitals and Doctors so doing this was a big step and I was so desperate. The doctors said he was outraged that it had to come to this, my primary refusing treatment, the out-of-pocket Doctor not changing my medicine, wanting another $100.00 the next day etc.....He said the urinary infection looked better {the ER doc} but my kidneys were swollen and my spleen seemed enlarged, which of course made me very upset, he said the hot acid in my throat and throwing up blood were probably the results of the infection, the strong levaquin anti-B or both, he said to get "pepcid" and changed my anti-botic to "Macrobid" he said it was gentler, but the side effects include, "closing of the airway" and hepatitis, since the infection is almost gone I may just not take it yet and see how things go, after the levaquin and its horrible reaction I am so afraid to take another med. He wants me to follow up with my primary, I changed the primary and I have to call Monday for a follow-up. I am surprised I did so well at ER, I was almost "relieved" just to finally get some help. I was treated well, my husband and sister and friend do not think they answered all my questions, the Doctor was very nice and the nurse, but they were very busy and I did not get a chance to tell him everything that is going on, I did mention I suffer from panic and ocassional Agorophobia, he did not seemed concerned, he said "I will leave the door open and try to get you in and out" I was treated well, but it seemed so rushed and hurried, I really tried to convey my fear of the throwing up of blood, he said as long as its just a little like a small amount or little clots its alright, I have just been eating ice cream, dry noodles and soup and milk, I am afraid to eat anything else for fear of the hot acid and blood. I cannot believe I went to the ER something I fear, I am proud of myself in a way, but my husband, sister and friend say I did not get enough care, do you think I did?? I tried. I slept good, but I woke up sweating then chilling all night, I do not know what that is. Today I am just resting, I feel so very tired and weak, the worrying has done it. MY sister said he should of addressed my