Thank you Sam and Hello Ray! Glad to be here again!
Thought I'd be talking about the AA meeting I was going to today. The web said it was a 1:00 pm Tues - Fri meeting. I was excited that I got a close parking place because it's been raining all day. I had already picked up laundry and walked the dog, so two things were already accomplished. I was on a roll!
To my dismay, the meeting didn't happen. The gate was shuttered and locked and a sign from February 2010 stating that the meeting had moved to another time and location. Now all the meetings in my neighborhood are in the evening. No afternoon meetings except on Sunday. I really prefer afternoons, but it is what it is. I tried not to be too disappointed and continued on to get that haircut I promised myself. No wait - in and out. Then a little grocery shopping. Treating us to some nice steaks I picked up at the butcher. I wanted pork chops, but the market had thin pickin's today.
I didn't stop at the pub for a seltzer like I promised I wouldn't. I wanted to, but am really trying to exercise discipline. Got in the car and came back home.
I found a nice email waiting for me when I logged in. I had reached out to an old therapist that treated me years ago - before 9/11. I remember holding things back from him during the 18 or so months he treated me.. I don't want to hold back anymore. It's so toxic, these demons and feelings. He was happy to hear from me and said he thought about me often. He said his schedule is presently full, but if there's a cancellation, and I know in time, I am welcome to fill the spot and we can continue from where we left off years ago. That is so beautiful that he is trying to make time for me.
So I'm okay right now. There is a meeting this evening at 7:00 up the road. If I know I can start dinner later, maybe I can make that meeting. I really feel I need a meeting.
The dog and I are going to watch a movie this afternoon. Can't read books yet because my mind wanders and I easily get distracted. Have so many great books waiting to be read! Think I'll write that card today too. It's a old friend's birthday soon. We've been friends 32 years and worked together. Old friends are the best, aren't they???
Thanks everyone for letting me talk.
