Hi Jasmine, I hope you are doing better these days. I to have made a commentment to give up drinking. My son is very important to me and I had a car accident over the weekend during his birthday. I felt bad for myself and sought help through professional counseling right away before I could change my mind.
My military service was a hard 20 years where drinking was the macho thing to do. My of us where placed on ships where drinking problems where documneted in many of the saliors personal records. I have tried to control my drinking by myself serveral times, only to think I have my addition under control and can handle a little wine and not sprits. But after starting the sprits I can seem to stop. Blackouts have occured where I don't know what I have said or done. I feel ashamed the next day when people would tell me how mean or badly I had behaved. It's time for me to change and I have taken the necessary step to get help on my journy. Family, friends, online chats, AA, and counseling services from work.
Remember what the others have said, once you admitt to yourself that you want to change, then that's a first good step.
Members, do you have any advice for Jasmine? Has anyone ever been in her shoes?