Thanks for the support guys :) I'm on Day 6 here. I don't feel *good* per se, but I haven't smoked and that's all I need to know.
Timbo - I am indeed very fed up with being an addict. In fact, this desire to quit smoking initially began because I am in recovery from a severe drug addiction (2.5 years clean, yay). What formerly didn't bother me ("it's only cigarettes, at least I'm not _______"), slowly started to feel suffocating. That feeling built until I realized that I am still living in enslavement, even if the master is less life-destroying than what used to rule me. The fact that there are very few negative consequences to my smoking (compared to past addiction, I mean) has made it tough to stick out. Plus my partner is basically a chain smoker, as are the majority of my recovery friends. Over the past 1.5 years, I think my longest quit was 17 days. Usually I last 5-7 days. Hence why I am not joyful or optimistic about this quit (yet). I've tread this ground already, probably 25+ times in the past while. 6 days is nothing to get excited about, in my mind. The half-dose of Champix I'm taking really curbs the irrational, overpowering urges to smoke. It's staying motivated that's the problem.
York Quitter - I'm really looking forward to reading about your quit, and I hope your enthusiasm ends up bleeding over into my own quit, lol. I could use a little oomph. Like I said above, I fairly frequently get to this stage. The hard part for me is day 10-20, when I can't really remember why I quit and I feel like I've done a "good job" and a half smoke is really not a big deal if it's only once a month blah blah blah. I need to remember that EVERY time after that "half smoke", I end up with a pack in my purse within a week. Every. Time.
At the moment, I'm telling myself to go 30 days without a smoke. Every time I think "never again" I immediately want to smoke. Of course, underneath the idea is that at 30 days in, I'll be committed to continuing, but for now I need to know there is an out if I need it. It helps me remember I'm making a choice, not being punished.