Hiya, welcome to the quit zone! I'm in recovery, too (just celebrated 3 years last week), and 8 months into my quit. So, quitting substances really blew, right? That was not a fun period of readjusting to a new physiology, but ultimately, I feel a billion times better today than I did when I was using. It's just one of those facts of life - detoxing off any addictive substance is going to involve a period of discomfort, and emotional discomfort is a gigantic part of it. The key for me was keeping in mind that this was going to be a PERIOD of discomfort. Not a lifetime of pain, but merely a finite period where I am going to not feel my best. One of the things that I repeated to myself, ad nauseum, during the early days of my quit was, "Do it now or do it later," and what I meant by this was that, if I really wanted to quit, I had to radically accept that feeling ****ty was going to be part of it. Putting it off for another week or another year wasn't going to magically exempt me from the ****ty feelings. And if I HAD to feel that way at some point, then I might as well do it right now and get it over with. I'd rather be standing on the other side of it than shaking with dread and trying to mentally bargain my way out of the inevitable. I 100% assure you, IT IS TEMPORARY. And it didn't even take *that* long to start feeling better. Maybe a couple of weeks? And even before it was all sorted, I started getting flashes of elation that I was actually doing it within the very first week. I hung on to those flashes of elation instead of the flashes of panic. Our bodies recalibrate. Our minds recalibrate. It gets easier. Then it gets significantly easier. Then you are free. I found journalling my process on this site really helpful. Thoughts feel so big when they're in our brains, but they tend to shrink right down once we put them out in the world where others can see them.